Blah! How do I explain why I’ve fallen off the blogging planet?
Well, to be blunt, it’s a lot of work talking to yourself for the most part and even though I know I have wonderful visitors, it just gets a little dull sometimes. Plus this is an effort of love, no money changes hands with anyone, it’s a free will effort. Sometimes I guess I get angsty about giving away my time…not that I spend it doing anything else that is particularly necessary or needful, but still, one does get fussy sometimes doesn’t one?
Honestly, I think the real reason I fell away from writing daily is because my lil chickadees have all flown the coop. For a bit that was quite a torment for me, truthfully? It still hurts. I swear I didn’t think about the long emptiness that would swallow me when I don’t have to drive anyone around, or make it to practices, or buy clothes at the mall. They picked up their things, loaded their cars, or friends cars and off they went.
For a time, things were sort of nice between my significant other and myself. It was nice to have things just be the two of us, but then we settled down into habits, as people often do, and now this is a new problem…finding we’ve got our own lives and they don’t connect but for a bit of time on the weekends. Of course it was always that way in the past, but you didn’t notice it as much because there was so much going on otherwise. I’m finding things got better, but it’s still hard. If you are about to see your own children off in the world, invest in some real activities you and your spouse can enjoy together.
The other thing that is causing some ruckus in our lives is our parents are aging. Boy, no one told me what a mess that was going to cause. You know how sometimes even though I’m sure no one meant it, one child in a family gets a lot of attention from the parents? I wouldn’t go so far as to call the child a “favorite” but I think you know what I mean. Every conversation winds back to them. Everything you do is coincidentally a lot like what they do. Their plans are like yours, but even more interesting. Well, don’t tell anyone but we had a situation like that and I didn’t care, I just recognized it. Big deal. It made life easier in a lot of ways. Unfortunately, that adult child has now received some terrible treatment from said parents. Who knew? I think the trouble arose when those adult children wanted to “help” their parents. Whoo boy, that help wasn’t seen as true help and that began a minor battle that flares up now and again. So now, the second tier gets lots of game action! Whoopee!
Oh, if only life were simple eh?
Everything will work out,… or not!
I hope you are all doing well. I hope you don’t have any problems with missing people, or regaining people that are wonderful but challenging. But if you do? You can always talk to old Mo here.